^ ganun talaga sis. mahirap lalo na kapag bago pa. mas mahirap kapag umaasa ka pa. kaya ka nasasaktan because you 'hoped' pa, that he will change and wake up to his senses --- but that is not the case at all. only God can make a transformation like that, it's out of our control and we cannot force people to see or feel the same way about the same things.
it would greatly help you if you are busy with work, focus on supporting your child.
cry to God, see some friends, and though it is hard not to be reminded because your child is with you --- a lot of your aches, frustrations, anger and disappointment, si God lang ang makakatulong sa yo. It may seem ok, but deep inside, you know, it's not. Longterm solution talaga ang pagiging mas malapit kay God. Try mo. You can just pray, cry and be with other balanced and successful solo parents, thru faith.