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mommy_babyzoe

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Re: unappreciated mom...
« Reply #30 on: August 06, 2008, 01:13:00 pm »

sa sobrang pagkadala ko sa topic na ito e nakalimutan ko na magshare. before talaga i lived my like there's no tomorrow. I drink, i smoke, gala. And so, I was drinking on the 1st month of my pregnancy. Di ko alam na I was pregnant n pla. Kc irregular talaga menstruation ko and upto now irregular p din even though  ngpipills n ako. Plus, ngsusuka at nhihilo talaga ako pg mgkkron nko kc anemic ako. And so, I thought n delayed lang ako at normal lang ako ng month na un. But what really scared me was, the palpitating bukol on my left puson, tpos sobrang masakit yung puson ko. And so I thought I was sick that time kc sobrang skit ng puson k that it even wakes me up in the middle of my deep sleep. And so, ngpatingin nko kc mom ko ngkaron ng cancer sa reproductive organ niya. wala talaga ako idea na buntis nko nun. So,punta ko clinic then pinapsmear p ako urine test (lab ito not yung typical preg test ginawa nila) so hours ang itatake pra sa result. That was saturday around 6pm ako ngpcheckup, e closing n nila un. So monday ko pa nkuha results. I smoked and drank alcohol again that weekend. But nung malaman ko na preggers ako, instantly, natigil ko yung lahat ng bad habits ko (na dating hirap n hirap ako gawin, kc i said to everybody na i think the only thing that would and could make me stop smoking was if i get pregnant..hahaha..). So, naging maselan din yung pagbubuntis ko, pero not because of my drinking and smoking before. talagang maselan lang talaga ako at  maraming health problems, like my anemia, hypothyroidism, lack of sleep (kc ako yung buntis na hndi talaga pla tulog as in kahit pilitin ko hndi talaga ko mkasleep, huhuhuh), mababa din yung bhay bata ko, at mdmi pa. And so, I was always praying and talking to my baby n mging healthy sana sya at ngsosorry ako dahil hndi ko alam n andun n pla sya e ngsmo2ke p ako at ngdri2nk. Takot n takot talaga ako. Never ako ngmiss n checkup, vitamins, at ultrasounds, drink anmum, bsta lahat ng need ko gwin, ginawa ko talaga.  Twice ako nhospitalize when i was pregnant. And so, imbes na excited ako manganak, I was scared dahil nga sa pinagdaanan namin ng baby ko during my pregnancy. TPos nanganak n nga ako (c-section din ako), normal naman daw. dhil s gusto ko sya mkita and mpabreastfed e pnroom-in ko nalang sya (d nila sinabi n puwede plng mgpbreastfeed s nursery, kaasar talaga) tpos nakita ko may rashes sya. FIrst milk niya was bona, then change s nan ha, kaso nconstipate lalo si baby, so ngpalit kami s enfalac lactose free. Ang pinakascare ko was when we were still in the hospital at ngcry si baby zoe. Nangitim talaga sya, I was so scared kc yung brother ko blue baby and he died even before i was born. Lahat ginawa sa kanya. 2d echo, may xray, kuha dugo, ultrasound, ecg, dme pa. I was blaming myself talaga kc sa mga pinaggagawa ko. I was beating myself up talaga and cry ng cry. And telling myself na if something happen to her i will never forgive myself at di na ako mag-aanak kc wala ko kwenta. Pero thank god, all tests came back as good news. There's nothing wrong with her daw. After sa hospital, uwi na kami house. pero twice or thrice a week p din kami s pedia niya kc consti-baby nga sya at lactose-intolerant din sya, the only way na mapatae sya e pilitin ilabas by using thermometer. tpos  hndi talaga sya ngstop mgcry nung 1st month niya. Pero ngayon ok n sya, mdyo consti p din pero  ok n yung tummy niya. hindi n sya kabagin ang lactose-intolerant. She's very healthy, maliksi, makulit, and intelligent. So now, di ko na blame sarili ko. Kc bumawi talaga ako sknya. Un nga lang, naging over-protective naman ako sknya. Un lang naman nging prob ko with her.

Dun s mga wala nmang mgawa at may natatagong galit siguro sa akin, like my F-I-L, kc wlang ibang ginawa un kundi silipin ang pag-aalaga ko. Mga moms, talagang di mawawala yang ganyang tao, may mga hidden galit yang mga yan or inggit or selos, kaya nila tyo dina-down. But my advantage is, i am strong. at i don't give a d_mn sa sinasabi nila kc i know for myself na mabuti akong ina at maswerte ako sa anak ko at maswerte din sya sa akin dahil hndi ako pabayang ina at irresponsible na mommy. Ma-swerte yung mga  babies ntn dahil tyo ang mommies nila, nakikita ko ang sarili ko senyo. kaya nga we belong in this same group e kc we want the best for our kids. Kung wala tyong pakialam we will not dream for them, kung baga bahala na sila kung anu2x nalang mangyari s kanya. Whereas, what we are doing is, we are giving our kids a choice, if like nila maging model, artista, o simpleng kid lang. Sympre us moms, nung kabataan ntn, ginusto din ntn n mgkron sana ng chance n binibigay ntn s mga babies ntn ngayon diba. I am so proud to be one of the members here, and proud din ako sa inyong mga mommies na katulad ko. Sana mameet ko kyo in person. Goodluck sa ating lahat at sa babies natin. May they all live a healthy life.

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Re: unappreciated mom...
« Reply #31 on: August 06, 2008, 02:09:22 pm »

we're aslo proud of you mommy_babyzoe! ;) we're looking forward to meet you. :)
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Re: unappreciated mom...
« Reply #32 on: January 15, 2019, 04:51:18 pm »

Basta po siguro maayos ang pagpapalaki natin, sapat na yon, kahit walang pasalamat.
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